Poem For Thought

With all of the emotion I was feeling yesterday, I composed a poem I wanted to share.


Swallowed by the emptiness of your presence,
my subconscious leads me on a mission to fill a void.
Not knowing I'm merely searching for acceptance,
on a path you long before destroyed.

In every waking moment of my life,
I fight my way through this toxic environment.
Poisoned with an inherent belief of unworthiness,
I blame myself for my abandonment.

My inner child screams for love and affection,
but instead is cradled in shame and doubt.
Rejected and heart broke, she silences her cries,
losing her in the repetition day in and day out.

Hope becomes not a dream, but a fallacy,
as the only way I can be soothed is to become numb.
I shut down and watch this life happen around me,
feeling helpless, believing that their nothing more to come.

Like the ocean erases footprints from the sand,
you've moved on without a trace of me.
But as the sand holds on to the faint indentation,
I know you can't erase ideas of what I once could see.